Category: Biography

It’s some random thoughts from yesterday. I want to extend them a bit more today. And it turns out it’s becomes a philosophical thing 🙂 Scroll down for interesting questions yay! A random question pops up: do you want to feel time? Well I think this is a tricky question. When time goes fast, it’s…

Found an approach for writing regularly. I would mark down some interesting random thoughts during the day, then I would extend and write a bit more before I sleep. Because literally, more and more items are added to my to-do list during the day, and usually I cannot finish them all, so yeah just the…

Bad day. kept thinking about something I don’t wanna think about before I slept at night. overslept in the morning and afternoon, social withdraw and escape, overthinking, procrastination, unproductive, everything in a mess, uncomfortable, unsafe, not willing to eat, bad stomach, intermittent apathy. 很想回到遙遠的那片靜土，但是否當我遠離的時候，自動為它加上了濾鏡。人總是矛盾的，在這裡就嚮往遠方，在遠方卻思念故土。缺乏勇氣。 Expectations, been hurt by “expectations”, fuck not my fault actually but…

今天感受到一種遠離舊地的愁緒與自由。 室友說：在地鐵上，我想像自己會生活在這裡，不會回到故國。 (I think that I would live here and never go back.) 我說：是啊，我也有同樣的感受。在滿地可的時候，我也感覺到一種遙遠的感覺，好像自己不會再回來了。 (Yes, I feel the same. I felt like I moved to Montreal and never come back here.) 我又說：交換的日子裡，你會感受到很多。很難說得清。一切就像夢一樣。本來我只打算待五個月，沒想過會延長到八個月，而我竟然在一週前才回來。 (You will feel so much during the exchange. It is hard to tell. Everything feels like dreams. I only plan for staying there…

Connected with a friend today. Found that we have almost forgotten how we met, what we did together. It raises a question: how should we spend memory?  Why is human memory built for forgetting? Because life is too painful? Too boring? Too happy? Maybe excessive things are not good, or maybe the higher one just…

Busy day as usual. Got many things to think about and do. So many administrative things to do for courses, hard to arrange the schedule. But I found that when I am busier, I have a higher tendency to doom-scroll, with little conscious awareness, like I am working but actually not being productive. I try…

Open the laptop, check the emails, many things pop up, deal with the new information. Adding new things to my schedule and to-do list day by day, multi tasking as always. my schedule still in a chaotic messy. Everything feels like back to normal. Busy and sleepy all day, not productive, having boring lectures. Not…

Classes started to be a bit interesting today. I am busy in a certain way, headache, not very productive at all. But I feel fulfilled and feel good. The feeling is familiar, it didn’t exist when I was in Canada. I like being kinda productive, but why didn’t I have this feeling in Canada. A…

You’re living under control. You try to say no, but they insist, “Yes, you should.” They express their emotions to you, so from a young age, I’m afraid of dealing with people’s emotions, including my own. When I talk about everything, like “I’m feeling sick”, or ask about something, like “Where is that?” They always…

i feel like my teenage years are an insanely boring story. 很無聊，無聊得讓人發瘋。 focus on studying boring and outdated stuff for 6+ years, 0 real life experiences, only stayed in a same place, doing the same routine, with the same social circle. thanks for my school and home, i got fucking headaches and depression for 1.5…