Bello ohayo salut comment ca va everyone.
This is my first post.
Still sleepy asf because of jet lag. I didn’t sleep well since I came back 🙁
After 8 months of adventures and living in the other side of the world, the way I perceive the world is different. It’s impossible to go back to the life before. Trying to tidy up and organise some of my thoughts so I AM HERE right now.
I feel lost. I don’t know what should I study for in my university. I want something practical for my career, but also something meaningful. My major is boring and useless to me right now. I don’t enjoy my study except for French course. So maybe it’s better to take some chill courses that I can skip lectures. Maybe it’s better for me to learn things by reading and watching YouTube videos. Finding internships, getting a good GPA (well not very useful actually), that should be my responsibility right now. But I want more life experience for sure. Thinking about taking a gap year and going overseas again next year, maybe go to NZ or AUS for new experience. I know I cannot be so chill and follow my thoughts all the time. Maybe its one of the reason I feel a little bit of anxious and depressed here. Being busy can stop myself from overthinking, which makes me feel better. I am not happy but this is normal life. I hope the time passes by more easily and faster here. I don’t know why I have been in this mental state for a long time in Hong Kong before, maybe it’s just too hot, and I am melting :0 So everything will be fine I believe :))
I will figure it out. I need to figure it out.
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